Sometimes in this Creative Life, you get tired. I don't know. Maybe the world is too overwhelming. Maybe you just choose to follow trails of thought that lead you to darkness, to places you forgot existed. Or maybe it just comes down to revealing something in yourself that you need to heal from. I've searched for so many books, listened or watched interviews of people I admire, talked and discussed with friends what makes us go down those paths. I don't think it's unique to the creative life, and I think we all have an inner child crying inside. We all carry some shame, we all aren't always there. That would be exhausting. I'm exhausted...
Why am I sharing this with you? Well, the world we live in now, with social media and the internet... Everything is just too pretty. Too fake. And I think we all are tired in some way or another. I want to see something different. I want to see everything. I want to experience it. After all, things get destroyed but then comes creation. So maybe putting this down on the blog, someone will read this and see that I am not perfect. You are not perfect. None of us are. It's not what it seems like. Maybe there's more to us than just our instagram profiles. I hope you show it all. Because you are beautiful in how wholesome you are. I want to see your scars. I want to see your smiles. Let's fuck it up.
First and foremost, I'd like to apologize for the terrifying picture of this character. This is Teddy Perkins. He is a character from the second season of the FX TV Show, Atlanta. The Show that was created by Actor/Writer/Comedian/Rapper, Donald Glover.
I've been completely moved and inspired by this second season of Atlanta. I am just captivated by the cinematography and writing for a show that really points you in so many directions. The characters are so compelling and they grow so much from one second to the next.
I don't want to give you too much, because truly you have to experience the show on your own. Open your mind and be prepared to jump from realism to surrealism. If we're friends outside of the interwebs, I'd love to chat about this show. There's so much to uncover. And/Or if you're someone who's reading this and you admire my opinion, hope you enjoy this show. I love art like this.
Wow... I am completely blown away by a series I just binged on YouTube. OH MY GOD! Wong Fu Productions created a beautiful series called Yappie. It is so good and I relate to so many things in the series.... Check it out! Watch all 5 episodes! Witness this beautifully written story! Thank you Philip Wang and the Wong Fu team for being such incredible TrailBlazers for communities I identify with!
With the success of Crazy Rich Asians and Searching in mainstream media... I am finding myself celebrate my identity, as an Asian American, by going down rabbit holes of YouTube interviews and clips of artists that I admire and respect. From George Takei to Ryan Higa... I'm seeing and learning from all these artists and refining the stamp I want to put on this planet.
And when I stumbled upon this series... It made me choked up with so many emotions. Just like those films I mentioned, I saw myself in this series. I heard thoughts I've had spoken out loud, insecurities expressed, and fears explored. I saw my friends, my siblings, my parents. Again, I saw myself. My love for basketball and hip-hop, I saw the thoughts I go through as an Asian American artist, and the thoughts I have had on my participation in American culture. Episode 5 in it's entirety are things I have thought of and experienced to a T! I am at awe and so inspired. When art does that... It feeds this fire in me that makes me want to conquer the world! The honesty of it all is what fuels a fire in me that makes me want to CREATE!
Pl.ease check it out and let's have a conversation about it! UGH! I am so inspired!!!! I want to be in something like this. I want to create something exactly like this!
P.S. Janine Oda... If you're reading this. Will you marry me?
Wow... So I was lucky enough to get the chance to perform in a staff showcase at the place I work at, New World Stages. Most of us on the house staff and security staff are artists that want to pursue and make a stamp on the world. We show up to the theatre to ensure people experience the shows in our space in a safe and warm fashion, but most of us want to create art just as much! New World Stages makes a point to put on this Staff showcase every year and it always warms my heart to witness the spotlight shining on these beautiful artists that are normally showing you where your seat is, telling you where the bathroom is, serving you a drink, picking up after you when you leave... We are passionate human beings and it always warms my heart to see us come together for this special showcase!
For this showcase... I got to perform with Savannah Bennett and Nygel D. Robinson. And thank the Gods I was such a lucky person to do so! For weeks we had planned to sing with one another and had no direction or song that we were desperately wanting to perform. We brainstormed here and there but when we finally got together the night before... Magic happened. Here's a video of what took place.
Putting this arrangement together with them was like butter on toast. It was just melting into place and their talent BLEW ME AWAY! GOSH! I hope you all enjoy this little rehearsal sesh as much as we loved coming together and singing in the acoustics at the Stage Door in New World Stages... WOW! I really really really hope it is the first of many creations!!! WATCH OUT FOR US :)
Hey My Loves,
Gosh it's been far too long! I just wanted to update you quickly... I've been all over the place and busy busy busy! But I was just in this fantastic musical Interstate. The show was part of the New York Musical Festival and it was a life changing experience. I learned so so so much! You can catch a tid bit of my journey on my Instagram or Facebook. Check it out! I met some incredible people and people keep finding me on the streets of NYC stopping me because they recognize me from the show... CRAZY! I met so many beautiful people who were involved and I miss my Cast and Creative team EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! WAH!!!!!
One of the cool things that happened was...
I GOT NOMINATED FOR OUTSTANDING PERFORMANCE IN A SUPPORTING ROLE!!!!!!
Still blown away and not sure that it happened.... But I definitely can't wait to see where the show's success lands! This is "A tale that's GOT to be TOLD!" I hope you get a chance to witness it's magic! For now!!! LOVE YOU ALL AND HOPE YOU HAD A WONDERFUL SUMMER! MUAH!